letter before I leave #1

Oct 9, 2009

forgive me. falling in love with this. obsessed. eating, drinking, sleeping with war. my possessions meaningless. that I could forget cosiness. winter fire. warm food. lit candles. the duvet. my thoughts half a world away. on someone else’s hardship. someone else’s dismay. homes shattered. forgive me. the ice of Ex. buried us. a year of my life rolled across prairie like tumbleweed. I forgot to need. forgive me. falling in love with all of this. believing that just maybe. I could make a difference. with words. alone. believing you could wait, be patient. keep cosiness. winter fire. warm food. lit candles. the duvet. for me. ‘til I came home. if only you could. believe. I would return. forgive me.